baack!

i'm back on this wild roller coaster ride that is weight loss. i'm sitting at right around 250lbs, yes i know a HUGE gain from my last entries, and am about a size 22. but today all this is starting to change. i'm DONE half-assing this attempt to lose weight and just continutally making myself fatter.

the people in my life and my LIFE, living it, being present, not being numb with food, matter more to me than being able to eat til i'm so stuffed it hurts...which, in all honest, makes ya feel miserable any. i'm on sparkpeople.com as ryanslover1 if anyone wants to friend me, my food journal is public on there so it's not an issue of being private.

on a lighter note, christmas is in 8 days!! yeay!

expect to be hearing A LOT more from me in the future, i'm ready to get moving and get this weight off once again!