day 3

this is day 3 of eating correctly and not even remotely binging.  i'm eating when i'm hungry but not gorging myself.  i feel really good today too.

my mood seems stable and relatively good, not manic good, but good none-the-less.

i baked blueberry muffins, sauteed salmon for dinner, and wrapped all the rest of the christmas present.  i'm still itching to DO something though.  i organized my favorites and desktop on the computer also.  i made a list of the books i want downloaded on the kindle that i just got for christmas!!  i'm beyond excited about that one, i just hope it's not too complicated for me to use effectively.  i'm not exactly great with technology.

i havn't been able to work out these past few days because aiden's been home.  when i try to ride the elliptical he tries to ride it with me, which is not only dangerous but completely ineffective to working out.

tomorrow i know i'll get my exercise in because i have to walk over a mile each way to the pharamacy and get some scripts filled.  i HOPE i' able to get a ride, but that generally doesn't pan out for the most part.  i just hope it doesn't snow if i have to walk. lol. that would suck monkey balls.

i'm starting to get really excited for christmas!  i think this will be the best one yet because aiden really understand about santa and what's going on, and is counting down the days with me.

my in laws are a religion that closely resembles johova's witnesses.  they don't celebrate "pegan" holidays, like christmas, easter, new years, etc. and they get really upset about ryan and i celebrating them.  i'm over caring about that though.  for the first few years that i was part of their family i hid the fact that we celebrated normal pagen holidays, but i'm beyond caring at this point.  no i'm not ever going to start going to a christian church for 2-3 hours every saturday for fellowship, no i'm not ever going to give up my pegan holidays, i'm not going to stop doing rituals because they believe them to be evil.

i think that is part of the reason they don't talk to me so much anymore.  the last time i heard from them was on facebook when they posted on my wall to wish me a happy birthday.  i really am just over the idea of having anything to do with them.  they are completely drama and chaios ridden.  i don't need that in my life as i have a hard enough time being stable on my own.

it just hurts my feelings sometimes when i think they don't care to be bothered with me because of my religious beliefs.  i can't imagine not talking to someone over something like that.  i don't understand why they think their beliefs are better than mine, and therefore they are better than me, just because i think and celebrate something different than them.  it boggles my mind.  but ya know, i'm the crazy one.