tired

the xanax for the mania..the only medication that i had that would calm me down, not really a mania buster but i'll get some sleep with it...is making me soo damn tired.  i just desperately want to take a nap, but i know if i do that i'll have to deal with a slew of comments reguarding my laziness and lack of descipline with being a good productive mom and wife. 

just an hour, i'd kill for just an hour long nap.

today's and yesterday's eating has been super good and healthy.  i dunno about calories but right now i'm focusing on eating super healthy and not eating until i'm overful/ binging.

today for breakfast i had scrambled egg white with light cheese, maybe 1/2cup, and about 1/4cup of hashbrowns with green and red bell peppers mixed in.  for lunch i had my standard light bread, turkey breast, light laughing cow cheese, lettuce and tomato sandwich.  i've been trying to focus on getting more protein in because that's what really keeps me satisfied and not hungry for the longest amount of time.

i have salmon for dinner tonight, but i've been baking all day and i think i might wait until tomorrow to make that.  i'll do it in the morning so i know i'll have the motivation for it.  sauteed salmon fillets, some steamed broccoli, cauliflower and carrots all mixed together.  maybe i'll make some whole grain brown spanish rice with it as a side..that sounds good.