Christmas and Ryan

Ryan and i are doing much better.....he's my husband and i have to take that eternal commitment seriously because that's how it works! He's been allot nicer to me lately and we've talked through a lot of our issues, I think he has a better idea of what i need and where I'm coming from now.

I'm so happy to report that Ryan and i are okay again. my mother divorced my father when i was 2 and i don't want Aiden to have to live a life without both parents being together. right now our only issue that we can't really resolve is that i want one more child and Ryan doesn't. he says that if it's THAT important to me, we can have one more but not right now. I guess I'll just have to except that.

On a different note- Christmas was WONDERFUL. BEST Christmas EVER. I got a Wii and Wii Fit plus a TON of fitness games, Mario games, family feud....great stuff. i even got a ring that has all of our birthstones in it (Ryan's, Mine and Aiden's). Ryan wanted a studio grade microphone. even though he's going to school for nursing he's already graduated from Julliard for voice/opera. he's got an amazing voice and a real talent when it comes to music so i think the microphone will serve him well. Aiden got everything he asked Santa for, so he want happy. that living room is covered in toys, but they'll all eventually find homes besides just being under the tree.

I'm going to start my first workout on the Wii fit today...when it's a reasonably decent hour, not 5am. I also plan on taking Aiden for a walk today because there's a Bath and Body Works store near my house, and it's time for the semi-annual sale....I gotta stock up on my favorite goodies =)

Love that place, it makes taking a shower and taking care of myself a real joy- which is important because i have such issues with depression that if taking care of myself becomes something that feel like a chore instead of something i enjoy i won't be able to work up the motivation to DO it. It's gross, but that sad truth. so yeah, definitely hitting up the semi-annual sale!

I've totally overindulged over the Christmas holiday, but ya know what? I'm okay with that. it's one time a year, these goodies aren't always available so i might as well enjoy them while i can....I can lose weight anytime there's no rush so I'm not going to deprive myself.

How was your holiday?