Rough

I had a mental breakdown from my severe bout with depression in my therapist's office yesterday. My appointment was for Thursday and being so depressed i had the wrong day. thankfully she saw me anyway. we talked for almost 2 hours, and i was in tears the whole time. they tried to admit me to crisis response center but i refused. Roz, the therapist, tried to get me in with my psychiatrist but he was booked up until next week so I'm on my own dealing for this until next Tuesday.

I haven't been eating much, and I'm sleeping as much as humanly possible. Being bipolar sucks- especially when the meds I'm on decide to stop working for no apparent reason.

that basically sums up why i haven't been posting. my birthday is this Saturday and I'm having a little party at my house. i hope the turnout is decent. it's the only thing I'm looking forward to right now. i hope it doesn't turn into a major disappointment with no one showing. either way I'm hoping Ryan, the husband, and i will have a good time.